i don’t feel me

Will I ever Feel like I’m getting better? Will I ever be able to place the words that overflow my heart? Can I ever make it back to the start? Can I ever get back the only part of me that made me feel real? Cuz I sit and I stare at these pieces of paper Empty, crisp, and fresh The place where I would bleed out every part of me that I have left All of the things I never said All of the things that just bounce around in my head It used to come so easily, Hurricane of emotions would all flow out freely But now… I don’t feel me Noooo, I don’t feel me You would think I would know where to start It’s never been so hard before to bleed out this heart Just write and write and write onto a piece of paper put ‘em on a song and hear about the same pain later Cuz I sit and I stare at these pieces of paper Empty, crisp, and fresh The place where I would bleed out every part of me that I have left All of the things I never said All of the things that just bounce around in my head It used to come so easily, Hurricane of emotions would all flow out freely But now… But lately I don’t feel me I don’t feel me I’ve lost touch with reality, slowly This darkness has essentially consumed me I can’t breathe, I can’t see, I never wanted to lose me I never wanted to lose…